It Happened

So guys, a life changer just took place for me at 3:54 AM on February 10, 2013 as I just poured my soul to my grandmother by writing an email telling her that I am gay.  I am literally shaking as I'm typing this, the butterflies wreaking havoc on my stomach knowing that I just took a step that I never thought I would before.  I did it.  I told her I was gay, I told her the trouble I've gone through and continue to go through, and I just laid it all on the line, taking the biggest risk I ever have in my entire life.  I asked her not to call me, but to email me back if she wanted to reply back, but I also asked her to keep this between us for now.  I'm so nervous as to how she will react when she reads this email tomorrow morning, and I let her know that I understood if she didn't understand my situation right away.  I also told her that it's okay is she wants nothing to do with me from now on.  Anyway guys, and this is a bit ironic considering I usually write a ton about so little, but I'm going to go ahead and wrap this up for now to get some sleep, even though I have so much to say and share.  I'll let you guys know how everything goes, and I can't believe I finally came out to somebody.